Marya the Witch (small unwritten dream)

December 31 2020

Intense multi switching dream

First part of dream had something that felt like Mansion VS Aeolus. Marya and Cerulean and Cerise and Ashura were grown, with everyone trying to hunt Marya because she was some sort of powerful witch causing havoc. 

Colleen made a pact with the devil which swirled around her in Girly's appearance. She did it to save Lalein's life and have a happy future with him. In exchange the devil took "all that was happy before" from her and she was sent back in time as a child to a different family. She realized too late that the changes to her life were the devils price and begins to experience intense abuse from her parents and two brothers. 

(Update July 2021: Shit, we never finished this dream write down and now it's gone.  Crap.)

The guidance counsellor

Colleen POV dream.

Deerfield Hall looking schoolground with a lot of buildings and a courtyard. Snowing. Something was wrong with the place but couldn't put hands on what.

I was pregnant and the rest of the students were ruthless and unforgiving in their bullying. Dissociating. There was one class being held by the guidance counsellor on the second floor that we were attending. Other students included a woman with a hijab and a popular boy. I clung to my phone and tried to make time pass faster but I was due for a meeting with this guidance counsellor.

I went to the counsel room and when I approached the counsellor she used some sort of magic and the door slammed and locked shut. I whirled around to see an impossibly tall, terrifyingly grotesque gray man who pinched my neck when I tried to run. They cornered me and told me they needed to eat me, and the children inside me, for some sort of power boost. I tried to attack the counsellor to see if I could defend myself and considering she was humanoid, but to no avail. There was a sludgy warping large piece of flesh on the ground that stopped me, and periodically it'd warp out the vague silouette and appearance of a man. Ultimately as the three of them cornered me, the gray man offered me a plastic bag and told me to swallow it and suffocate and die. I asked him why he'd do that instead of just eating me and he laughed something about enjoying watching someone die by their own hand.

Frantically I looked out into the hallway at other students. Some of them looked at me, some of them jeered, some of them looked afraid and kept their heads down. Some of them were demonic silhouettes.

Before I could swallow the bag, suddenly the sludge man sent out what looked like razor daggers from his body. The counsellor and gray man screamed. The counsellor was pinned to the wall with the amount of daggers that hit her. The gray man was recoiling and trying to fend it off. I heard the sludge man bellow Run!

So I scrambled through the legs of the gray man and out the ruined door. Outside shadowy demons looking vaguely like classmates tried to grab me but I sprinted down the hall and sidestepped their arms. I swiped on my phone and suddenly rectangles of space would open up between walls, allowing me through. Behind me I could hear the roar of things chasing me as the walls closed.

At some point I reached the end of the building and a piece of the sludge man rounded the hall. He yelled that I had to open two walls, one in this building, one in the other, and get ready to jump.

I did that, soaring through the space between the two buildings with snow slapping my face, and skidded into a storage room cloaked in velvety quiet. The room looked like a huge warehouse with high windows and wan blue light. I struggled to my feet, holding my aching belly. I was terrified and feeling so alone, but then I calmed, feeling Lalein nearby.

I opened another wall into what looked like a beautiful library room with a fireplace, a wall full of books, another wall with bright windows that for some reason showed a vague silhouette of spring outside, and some tall chairs. Before I walked in there, a portal opened up in the storage room much like the ones I'd open. Lalein flowed through in his dark cloak, his face sympathetic and soft.

He guided me to the library room and the portal closed behind us. As he sat in the chair he transformed... Into the woman with the hijab, the classmate who was with me earlier. It turns out he was in disguise the whole time monitoring the situation with the demons in the school. I sat with him and he held my hands, boring into my eyes. We didn't say a word, only with myself knowing that it wasn't quite over because I still had to go back to that school regardless of the dangers there. But it felt good knowing there was a safe spot like this to hide.

Eventually I peeled myself from his side and descended some stairs to exit out to the snowy courtyard. There was a glass room in the center of the courtyard, what looked kind of like a phone booth but without a phone. We had to go there to "save" our progress. I walked up to it, inputted a code 4953, and made my way back to the original building.

When we went inside, we switched. It's now Sophia's Pov.

I made my way through the snowy courtyard back to Deerfield. Between some of the metal beam sculptures leading to the entryway was the gray man, immobile and staring at me.

I walked in warily to the school and was almost immediately greeted by the vice principal, who demanded a reason for my truancy. I stuttered something about dissociating and not remembering. I didn't want this human woman to know about the demons prowling about for her own safety. She began on this intense criticism of me and my choices, including the pregnancy. At some point I snapped and threw my phone at her, but I missed and the phone clattered some feet away. I immediately regretted it as I picked it up and there was a thin crack across the bottom of the screen. I knew I wouldn't be able to open portals now that it was broken.

The vice principal seemed to recognize I was at a breaking point so she calmed down. She told me to get to class and I went to the escalator to go back up once again to the classroom where I'd take lessons from the guidance counsellor. However, since the counsellor was dead, lots of students were gathered around out loud wondering why she was nearly forty five minutes late. Some students looked accusingly at me but for some reason the popular boy took the blame. He then pulled me aside and asked me with his big black eyes full of worry if I needed to go home with him tonight to somewhere safe. I realized he could see demons too and he must've been trying to protect me. He asked me if I saw the gray man around and I said yes, but he wasn't attacking me anymore. The boy seemed relieved and told me again to go home with him.

I asked him if he wasn't afraid to be seen with me and I realized his repeated asking for me to go home with him was some sort of proposal. He told me how he didn't mind and would even pretend to be the father of my children. He said he saw the day I got pregnant and I got a rush of memories being ravaged by demons and shuddered with both revelation and a dick twisted pleasure. He said he felt like he couldn't stop them, no one could, but at least he could do something right by me. I told him I'd think about it.

Since there was no class to be had I went downstairs to the center common area of the building that you could see from all the floors. There was a music station set up with a cherry bass and really nice boppy song playing. I somehow registered this as Simon's instrument and I tried to improvise on the bass to add to the song but... Quickly remembered I dunno how to play, LMAO. So I wandered to my harp in the corner only to realize someone had untuned and loosened all the strings. In my incredulity I watched as a demonic man leapt for Simon's bass with wire cutters and snipped one of the strings. Furious I went back and pommeled the demon man. The other students and demons watched warily but didn't intervene.

It occurred to me so much had happened between our last save point and now that I had to go back out. I went to the snowy booth again but before I could input the pin, two dark and dangerous women seeped out from the shades and laughed maniacally that finally they could get a good meal. I turned on my heel and tried to sprint back to the building but it felt like there was so much snow that I could barely move.

Then, I woke up.

The failed undoing of a curse

August 29 2020

Episodic nightmare. Lived with a brother and sister (mine but not my real life siblings, they were random folk) in a townhouse and was in highschool. Brother watched a horror movie like the woman in black. Apparitions began to show up around our house.

Dream visions were terrifying. A ghostly woman with a crooked head and veil. Blobs of flesh and teeth. Mutated plants and people. And turning around or walking into rooms that would go dark and fill with monsters. I'd turn around and something benign would be transformed that way. Notebook drawings, everything. I learned in the dream my brother invited this horrorfest in by watching the movie so we tried to get him to watch to the end in order to resolve it. No dice. Through the dream running into those monsters I'd be overwhelmed with sounds of roaring and screeching and my vision would go black. At points in the dream Lale and Colleen would step in to preserve me. They're up right now making sure I'm okay. 

At some point I was driven to a highschool. Something about eating there and dispelling the curse. Brother dropped me off and I went to a dark room with a piano. I tried to play some. Notes that would transform the school back to normal. Instead a blob of distorted upright human limped out to me from behind me and I ran.

Hallways dark and moaning. Some classrooms were brightly lit but empty. Lost a leg at some point and got a peg leg so I limped around. Was leaving footprints from stepping in some paint and also from blood. Hobbled upstairs where I found a girl who looked remotely human and I recognized she was cursed too. Asked if she wanted to go eat together and she smiled all odd and said of course. She then tried to eat me. I ran through many parts of the school and ended in a butchers fridge portion, like the entire hallways were turned into butcher fridge. Area was filled with decapitated pig heads and workers in hazmat suits. I wandered there for a while before waking up. 

The village sacrifice.

 

An important note: In 2018 we were diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder.

This is Lalein recording the dream.  Sophia shall be referred to in third person as majority of the dream was mine.

This dream is intensely detailed and long.  I woke to Simon to recollect this dream to him verbally.  The memories are correctly sealed and now being recounted.

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Sophia began this dream.  She dreamt she was with her sister and Simon at an amusement park.  They rode a rollercoaster that gave the body intense vertigo.  At some point the rollercoaster went so low that Sophia scraped her knees on the ground.  The red and white track of the amusement park was nausea-inducing as it blurred by.

After leaving from the amusement park, Sophia and Simon attempted to walk through the woods to find their highschool again.  The sun dappled light through the trees was lovely as can be, and the smell of soil rich after rain.  They happened upon a house in the woods with an open door.  She seemed to recognize this house as the house of a classmate within the dream, a girl named Emma.  Several kittens contained in fenced portions at the front.  As the owners of the house attempted to adopt off the kittens, one large cream and swirled cat came bolting from the shrubbery yowling.  It must have been her kittens.  This cat bit Sophia in the hand gently to guide it to the litter as if to show her each kitten.  In the dream Simon laughed, "Hey!  The cat chose you!"

Soon they departed from this scene and returned to the school.  The school was Kennedy Public School even though it functioned as a highschool.  This was the same distorted layout of a school as the previous nightmare we had with the severed pigs' heads.  The dream split into two perspectives in the moment.  There were two children, the girl Eleven and the boy Will from the show Stranger Things, that were investigating the school to see if they could find a monster both were detecting.  As they walked into the gymnasium, there were several people inexplicably loitering within, both parents and children.  They laid eyes on a coworker of Sophia's, recognizable within the dream.  Sonya is her name.  Sonya was flirting with a young lover beside the stage and the children were wary of this stranger in the dream, thinking that was the monster in disguise.  But as they wandered about the gymnasium trying to sense each person, they were confused.  They could not find the monster.

As they turned to leave, Sonya hopped into view, and said, "You know.  I think I've fooled you long enough.  I just can't help myself.  I'm so hungry."

Her head and body distorted and clawed open into an icy maw that froze the parquet around her steadily.  An icy tentacle burst out of the mess and aimed for a child screaming nearby.  Eleven and Will attempted to hold her down, screaming at the passersby to run.  This scene of the dream ended as Eleven and Will desperately thought to warn Simon and Sophia of the events right below them.  All we have is the sound of their screams.

Upstairs, Sophia and Simon were in some sort of class that required laptops.  There was a substitute teacher, a militaristic man that was very impatient, rushing Sophia to get her laptop prepared.  He was muscular and tall and had a boxed buzz cut, and also cauliflower ears.  He also was Emma's father, and Emma was absent for reasons unknown.  Meanwhile, the old machine Sophia was attempting to use was smeared with red wax, and many keys were unresponsive.  The substitute could see this but he would not stop his snarky comments.  "Ready to join us, Ms. Luo?  Everyone else got theirs ready so I don't understand your excuses.  Just solve the problem and move on."  Things of the like.

As she was attempting to set up this machine, texts were going across the screen.  She was in a conversation with Casmir and also Casmir's mother.  Casmir was asking, reasonably, for her mother to contribute some way financially to the family, as Casmir herself was growing increasingly stressed out as the sole provider to the house.  Casmir's mother then sent a flippant message about how she was being emotionally manipulative.  Sophia's nerves and anger spiked.

Before she could answer these messages, the substitute barked at her to forget setting up the machine.  He would see to it that she would personally fail the class.  

Sophia stood up.  She distinctly said, "You know, Emma is kind, patient, reasonable, polite, and empathetic.  And you are none of those things.  I won't sit here to receive an education from someone who would rather shout abuses than help the people he is supposed to teach.  Fail me if you want, I'm done."

She stood to gather her things and leave.  Behind her, she could hear Simon sheepishly apologizing and trying to keep the peace, which angered her.  Her nerves began to rise and spike into a near panic attack within the dream as classmates whispered and jeered, at which point, I stepped in.

I told her to hold steady.  And if she could not, I would help us leave this place.

The rest of the dream sequence is my own, as Sophia faded from the dream.  I stepped out of the school into the woods, where I found Colleen sitting and waiting for me with a soft smile on her face.  She was lovely in the forest green, sitting patiently on a mossy rock.  She and I walked for a distance, talking quietly and enjoying the peace.

Without warning, the dream changed sharply.  We woke groggily in the dry, sunny bowels of a ship.  We were tied with rope.  I struggled but Colleen was just out of view.

The substitute stood above our head with a dark mass of murmuring villagers.  He accused us of being evil, of being spawns of the devil.  We were dragged from the ship back into the same woods as before, except now dark and ominous.  We passed by the house with the open door, seeing Emma in the doorway with a troubled look on her face.  I recall Colleen crying out to her for help, but she only turned and went inside.

We were taken up the mountain to a cave where we walked through fresh flowing groundwater.  The cave was beautiful but as we ascended the watery ramps, we were brought to a dark, gaping hole at the very top.  It seemed like the villagers lived within this mountainous cave, doorways and walkways etched into the walls around this massive hole.  I could feel cold wind on my face, and far away at the bottom of this hole was a faint, faint red glow.

The substitute, who seemed to be the leader of this cult, made a grand speech about sacrificing the impure to hell.  I struggled within my confines, growing more and more fearful.  I struggled to lay eyes on Colleen, but all I could hear was her weeping somewhere behind me where I couldn't turn.  Someone had restrained me in a way that all I could do was look forward into the gaping darkness that awaited us.

And with one chorus of cheering, I felt pain bloom.  I heard Colleen scream.  Someone must have knifed me in the back.  The pain spread through my body in a slow burn.  Then, someone kicked me.  I plummeted into the darkness, hearing Colleen scream my name as she fell with me.

For a moment, I left my body.  I watched myself fall with Colleen falling just a short distance behind me.  My blood trailed behind us in the air in a gruesome arc.  Before we could plummet into the darkness, we were saved.

A holographic net in cyan blue-green, hexagonal in pattern, stopped us before we could fall.  We bounced against it and it glowed. I recognize this colour and pattern as something pertaining to Memory, our newest split - the happy and protective young man who seems to be cybernetic in nature. A strange computerized message appeared above our heads.  "Warning: Lale has been injured.  Lale has been injured.  Resetting map."

Colleen and I were floated back up to the horror of the villagers.  The substitute had a dark, angry look upon his face.  He slammed some sort of staff against the ground and the holographic netting below us tore up like a broken fishing net.  Colleen was safely deposited back on the ledge, but I began to fall anew.  I felt dark fear grip me, and my mind flew out to Lucifael, who within the dream I called gege.  I cried out for him and the scene of this dream ended.

Groggily, Colleen and I woke in the woods once more.  It was sunset, eerily quiet.  We staggered up to the house with the open door, seeing Emma sitting on the porch waiting for us.  She was a girl we had never encountered in real life, curly brown hair and pale gray eyes and plump frame.  

Colleen asked her why she didn't speak up on our behalf to save us.  Emma replied, "Because you're the devil spawn."

I woke shortly after to Simon's alarm.  I recounted this to him in a disoriented haze, as I do not often awaken at front.  This is as much as I can recall.  I am certain I have missed events both major and minor, but the cohesion of this dream, the revisitation of locations, and the clear map of places (the ship was west of the house, the amusement park to its south east, the school directly east, the moutain north) has struck me deeply.  I cannot feel Colleen anywhere, but Sophia has reconvened with me so we can recount this to our ability.

Work stress dream - March 25, 2020

Updating dreams continued.

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Nightmare again. Colleen woke in front having had a painful dream about social ostracization and passing out in an autumnal wood.

I switched and we went back to sleep around 6 AM and this time I had the nightmare.  I dreamed I had too much work to do and there was no electricity at work, which became on the tallest floor of a mall I would frequent in China. 

At nightfall after electricity came back I was trying to rush upstairs because apparently I forgot to do some work and Daniela, one of the designers, and Will the sales vp were both there, and so was my manager.

And I was so overwhelmed that I started to cry hysterically, the escalator was only going downward so I went to take the stairs and I couldn't get up the stairs because they were angled like slides. When I finally got up to my "desk" it became an elementary school desk and looked like my seventh grade classroom.

I found nearly six jobs in my desk and all of their date and due times were scrambled.  I was dissociating even in my dreams. Evelyn my coworker noticed because I was dizzy and woozy and unable to fish out all the dockets and sticky notes. I ended up working on the jobs until the clock said 11pm and even then I was still crying because I wasn't getting anything done.

I wanted to give the work to Daniela, at least a portion

But she said, "You know if you give it to me, you lose, right?

And Will was hovering over my shoulder wanting it done Now because it was an important and easy job for Apple.

Eventually there were these moles that started to show up in the floor of my "office" and they were creating sinkholes that eventually curdled like lava, so I had to get out but not before I read on the computer screen an email warning about my poor performance and how that will jeopardize whether or not I'm employed.  

I just woke up having been escaping from the mole.  

Bad times.

I'm Innocent - March 3, 2020

Uploading dreams from texts again:

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Hey, I had a bad dream.


I dreamed I was staying at this hotel/house Sims thingy, and Angel was there too.  It was really vivid and really sensory-laden. The gist of the dream went like, there was a serial killer there. In this hotel thing were a bunch of people I knew - classmates, coworkers, Tina and Kevin, my parents on both sides, etc.  The serial killer murdered a bunch of the classmates/coworkers

Angel discovered where this person had stripped the victims and stashed the clothing, he hadn't been caught but various body parts had been discovered so that people knew there was a serial killer around.  And when Angel discovered the clothes, she tasked me with burning them. However it was such a large amount I took the whole like wagon full and was mulling over what to do. It would've been hella suspicious, and I also wanted to keep some of the clothes and sort through who they belonged to so I could return it to the families... but some were bloody and terrible so I was going to sort them out and burn those.

In the middle of the dream I was very paranoid. I didn't want anyone to think me and my wagon of clothing was suspicious so I had to figure out where there weren't security cameras. I ended up stashing it in my bathroom behind the curtain there and figured I'd get to sorting it later.

I was distracted by the middle of the dream. There were Greek gods involved, something like a dispute between Hera and Hestia, and Hestia was so pissed she was ready to burn the apartment down, so I went to mediate and it resolved. My anxiety was real high by then.

So then I went back to my room, only to discover my father's family had put an aunt in there that I had never met, and she discovered the bloody clothing.  She was lying in my bed wailing.  Soon my father's family came and discovered the stash, and the way they looked at me told me they thought I was the killer.

I remember their interrogation and ganging up on me, my father and aunt and uncle, and I remember realizing and saying out loud that they never loved me

That they would jump to this conclusion before hearing me out... Y'know.

I remember smashing a lamp and yanking out the electric cord and trying to strangle myself to death in front of them.  They jeered about me being melodramatic until I stuffed the cord down my throat and I suffocated.

There was water in my room for some reason so my body floated there. I died and the spirit I became just hung around that room. I remember my dad's family proceeding like I hadn't died even though my corpse wa right there and they all were quietly freaking out. I even got into my father's bed at some point haunting him and asking him questions, like, why did you think I was the killer, why do you still think so now that I've gone and killed myself?

He argued with the spirit of me for a bit, like, I knew what you were capable of, you may have died but it doesn't counter evidence, why are you haunting me?

And I remember snapping at him, "So you will die too."

Then my mom's family and Tina and Kevin came back

They walked into my room and blankly stared at my corpse

Tina found a suicide note I'd written just before I strangled myself and it was full of apologies to them and Angel for letting the secret of the clothing out and all that.  And then I heard my mom start hysterically screaming.

And I woke up.

I'm a bit shaken.

Headspace dreams ft friends - Feb 25, 2020

I'm finding some dreams I wrote out in texts to friends, trying to document them here

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I had a dream about Milly and Casmir, all three of us together.

There was an obelisk in the desert of what I think is Cash's headspace, the sky was a deep blue and the obelisk had a platform in the centre studded with jewels.  When any of us stepped in the middle, the obelisk would transform the space around it into whatever our mind deemed accurate for the jewel we pressed.  I went first and when I pressed the amethyst the space around us in a ring became an intricate series of Gothic hallways spiralling up to a bell tower.  And when I pressed the emerald I got a wooden house structure and it'd build around us and the platform.

When Cash went to it, she pressed gold obsidian and the obelisk itself transformed into a shimmering gold texture, like some sci fi lithos.  It blossomed a few tall walls that curled like aurum lily petals above us but were made of sand.  And her amethyst turned the obelisk into a towering glimmering black shield looking thing with a huge amethyst in the centre, and around us became this like, vertically growing calcite looking series of walls like a maze.

I remember Milly remarking on this like "wow it's so different for both of you" and it's true, mine became always some sort of building whereas Cash's became these dreamscape works of art.

We could circle the platform and walk around the obelisk transformations and at some point as we walked through Cash's maze we rested at an area that was off the side of this platform obelisk land, an old barn like area except the inside was Etruscan wall paintings faded and chipped all over.

I remember feeling excited bc I could recognize the architecture and explaining to them in a nerd rush the arches and art style and likely year it showed up, lmao! 

We didn't end up going to give Milly a turn on the platform bc the dream changed.  I know we made our way out of the structure and I know we followed the distant figure of Avangeline across the desert to a sheer tall desert plateau. It wasn't even hot, just empty and gold.  Instead of taking us up the plateau she gestured for us to go off to the right. I saw the figures of Azrael and Cerulean, with Ruly much smaller and laughing as Azrael bounced him on his shoulders.  

When we followed there was an industrial staircase built up the plateau and as we ascended to the top I shit you not there was a door, we went through it like the Truman Show out to a subway and city.

We then were about to go to some sort of eco conference led by a Jane Goodall-esque lady, so we had to take the subway. I remember wanting to sit down in the middle between you two but Milly  had transformed into what looked like if Hoshoku and Eden had a love child LMAO!  A super tall Korean-esque boy in Japanese street clothes and deep black eyes and short black hair, except tall and plump like shoku.  This registered to me as an alter switch.  

And so the boy plopped down in the middle and I pouted like "Wait I want to get to link arms with both of you" and this boy gave me lip, like, what are you going to give me in exchange for me moving?

And I said "my undying love and affection"

So the guy paused and shrugged and moved over a spot so I could plop down hehe~

At the conference room we were separated as I went to the bathroom, this fancy single room toilet kind. As I was heading out of the room a teenaged girl with natural hair came and yanked over the door and suddenly screamed at me - like a peekaboo surprise, she was probably mistaking my bathroom for one her friend was in.  Except this triggered a heart attack in me? I felt myself fall flat on the floor as the world began to wooze around me. I was hyperventilating and I could feel my heart pounding way too fast.

When the girl stopped laughing she knelt in like blank surprise bc it didn't register to her that we didn't know each other till after I keeled over. She went to touch me like "omg are you okay?"

And I remember feeling wrong, like, my body felt like it was disappearing

I struggled to kneel with her support and then I uh... bit her in the throat.

I woke up because I actually bit my pillow just now. Like there are clear teeth imprints and they are deep.


So! That was my dream and I'm off to try and sleep again

Lale and Colleen and Skye - vivid dream

So this is the August 2019 dream I had with the Devil's Ensemble (tarot card magic) canon, pulled off my messages frantically sent to Milly:

 I had a nightmare just now I gotta write it down right now. Two scenes I can remember vaguely. You were in it, Milly. We were at some sort of school and or community center and I really wanted to go to this drop-in dance class. We were late. Participated and had to pause to watch for instructions. People dressed in fancy clothes, ballgowns and haute couture despite it being like a comm center gym room.

Sorry, three scenes not two. When the class was done you and I planned to go home, but I felt the presence of someone coming and immediately morphed into Lale. It was late afternoon getting to evenin, Lale rushed to the basement of the comm center through the stairwell and at some point was on a floor .5 levels below ground. Had several tarot cards. There was the normal hustle and bustle of people til Lale heard the clack of high heels. He stopped and muted his aura because his fight flight or freeze told him to freeze, and as he froze to watch whoever was coming down the hall methodically click clacking, it was Skye. 

Skye dressed in nice leather biker clothes with hot pink dress shirt, dark big sunglasses, lip gloss. I heard narration. 

"Lalein stamped down hard on the urge to wail. The man inside of him - the man inside of [Tarot card, in the dream I distinctly felt like it was Justice but I'm going to go with Lovers for accuracy], the man known as [name of some historical owner of card] knew immediately that the Chariot had come his way. He stamped on the urge to scream "Alessia! Alessia! Alessia!" as the ghost of that man sought the ghost of someone it once loved, the confused remnants of time and space and feelings that did not belong to him. Lalein bit his cheeks so hard they bled, praying to Lucifael to keep him out of sight. In his state, he could not win this fight."

Lalein had been struggling to acclimatize and harmonize several cards inside of him. Hierophant and Hanged Man and I believe Hermit which means in this dream, someone had killed Kazaelle, and he must've won a fight against whoever did because he now had her card. He was flowing through shadows to run but froze seeing Skye, surprisingly enough the Hermit did not offer him memories from Kazaelle probably because he doesn't know her true name. Flowing through the dark is hermits power. So HM, hierophant, Hermit, and he'd gotten the Lovers already. He was exhausted Cards were not going easy on him and he had several true names memorized so he was being bombarded with old cardholder memories, constantly needing to meditate. 

I heard more narration as I watched a brief flashback of Lale in a rigid Buddhist meditation pose:

 "One would begin to wonder if he was a quiet man because, by nature, he was quiet. Or, if one could imagine the sublime and indescribable torture that was receiving these memories day by day, having the lives and feelings and final fear-soaked moments of death impregnated into one's mind by a card desperate for one's victory... It would occur to one privy to the madness that was the Cycle to think Lalein, silent and staring into the rain, was barely a man any longer. Perhaps he was merely a ghost now as well, a ghost of Vaudemair dia Gatlael held together by the unchanging desire of the body to remain intact perpetually at war with the inhuman toils of four conflicting threads of fate." 

Something like that.


Well Lale was trying to very, very carefully get to Colleen. She was somewhere in the building as well. I think she went there for a class of some sort. This doesn't make sense in canon but I WILL weave it in. I can't shake this dream off. It frightened me deeply. 

Skye was determined to blow this place up to try and kill Colleen and Lale who were inside. I believe timeline wise this is after layleen have attacked the Baines and won?? That would explain why she was so grim and hell bent, and betraying the very morals she once held of not harming people uninvolved with the cycle. Lale should have Emperor then, but it's still surprising that it's Lovers that recognizes Chariot... But I prefer that because Lale is literally the Lovers and fighting that painful, heartbreaking urge from a past cardholder would actually disable him.

I'm alone at front rn. Okay so. As Lalein struggled to remain hidden but also continue to move along the basement stone corridors, much like in most malls or community centers for fire escape or connecting stores, it switched to Skye.

Skye was communicating over Bluetooth with her getaway driver, a dude who took money to drive her around. Despite being Chariot (ONLY chariot no other cards) she knew a getaway driver would suppress her aura better. She was casually checking on bombs in the basement of the building, knowing and feeling lay and Leen close by and getting more grim and determined with the second. I watched her locate at least four subtle but powerful bombs in stairwells and pipes etc. Idk why bc motivations are unclear right now, only that Skye was determined to get a card at any cost. Not sure why she's desperate enough to commit terrorism? But she wasn't doing it to be evil. Dream motivation was clearly sparked by a desire for a card paired with desperation. Maybe to retrieve Hermit. Hence why she chose at night knowing layleen would be there and not as many other people. Maybe layleen were hiding out there on the run and she was tracking them. Chariot is good at that. It jumped to Colleen for just a moment in a stark confrontation between Skye and Leen ... 

Oh, shit, I just remembered part of the dream!

It's not Skye who planted the bombs. That makes sense now. idk I gotta mull on this more from a writing perspective but in the dream I was under the impression she planted them. So Colleen and Skye in a confrontation, Colleen has Justice so she unsheathes her sword. Aka the Trilling Blade, dripping and looking eldritch as usual. She and Skye have a tense heated conversation before Skye makes a move at her and at that exact moment the bombs go off.

The bombs are surprisingly not so strong as to capsize the building. No screams bc it was empty by then being so late at night. Skye is surprised by the explosions hence why I realized now she didn't plant them?? I think it's bc when she checked them she was either A setting them up or B disabling them and either case they shouldn't have blown. 

Ok, dream gets fucking scary from here. So I get tossed three povs. One, Lalein is trapped in the rubble considering he's in the basement. It's not life threatening but when he's stunned he hears the manifestation of like, a music box clink, almost exactly like Charlie from don't starve. For some reason hearing it completely freezes him in primal fear. That fear pervaded me.

It switched to Skye who was running out of the basement bc sheer debris and dust and toxicity warned her to leave. Her getaway driver ran into the building like WTF WE GOTTA GET OUT, some scruffy Owen Wilson looking man, and she has to play the pretense of being a Normal Human as he drags her to the safety of his car and they gtfo. They were in an electric vehicle too. Idk why I knew this. As they drove down a road in sunset, which broke the time of the dream, at some point the car breaks down in a rural midpoint. 

As driver gets out to check smoking hood Skye contemplates killing him to erase eyewitnesses, but he cheerfully jokes with her about how she's had one hell of a day, eh? And just because he seems like a dumb and straightforward man who'd do anything for money, she gets a funny look on her face. "Hundred bucks and we do this again next time," she remarked, to which the man said something like only if you cover repairs this time. What he doesn't know is she broke the car using Chariot LOL 

Okay so Skye then feels something coming from the road, she realizes it's a cardholder she doesn't recognize. Not lay or leen. She shushes getaway driver and squishes herself in the passenger seat hoping her aura is suppressed enough. It's not. Who drives by but Alistair, my Wheel of Fortune, aka the same guy who's blown up both Jun Yens apartment and Heaven Underground and probably all sorts of other places. Oddly enough they're in the same kind of car. As Skye yanks the wheel from passenger side she wills the Chariot to help her drive and they take off. Alistair is hot on their heels and she just knows she can't shake him in a car. Some narration from getaway guy like "oh his is the x make which is larger with more horsepower but ours is smaller with more maneuverability" but less power or something.  Vertigo from the car chase I remember clearly. They loop back to go back to town Community centre oddly enough has no alarms sound. Security system disabled so no one even noticed the basement and smoke etc

 Well the dream cut back for a second to Colleen, in the ear ringing moment of being caught in the attack. She feels something rise out of the basement, something terrible and demonic. It's one of the demons of my headspace, or so I thought. Something I haven't felt in years, just like Charlie's hands, just like the drawing I did. Invisible but present as it poured out of the basement like a gate to hell torn open.

Colleen had been unconscious for a few minutes, waking up to Skye having run away. Coughing in the debris she scrambled up the stairs trying to climb back to ground floor when the thing caught her. I felt it claw through her leg. Rake claws methodically upwards from foot to thigh shredding her flesh into ribbons as it went. Colleen screamed. When she fell panting and trying to yank herself away by the arms, I felt the debris give away and she rolled into her back from the impact. She passed out again.

A flicker into Lalein's pov because he heard the scream. A part of him panicked and another part mourned. I heard him think I failed her again, a blur between Ensemble canon and real headspace Lalein. He disappeared thoroughly, the last thing I heard from him a gasp for air as the debris crushed him before he melded into shadow and lost his physical form. It then skipped back to Skye. Skye knows they're not gonna win this chase so she tells getaway driver to take himself to the nearest police station cos he's faultless. Then she literally leaps out the window and rolls fine into a sidewalk. People gasp but she grabs a motorcycle nearby and yeets herself back to the comm center. She goes into this eerily silent building and she drops back into the stairwell because she can feel Colleen still inside... But as she drops from like the ground floor to the basement she is immediately fucking regret because she feels the Thing.

At first she's stunned and thinks it's some form of the hanged man, something something Lucifael and long distorted hands. But as it slams into her, invisible, she shouts and struggles and begins fighting it with her whip. It picks her up and smashes her against the stairwell walls multiple times before Skye registers the clawing sensations too I remember her incredulous thoughts "Holy fucking shit, is it an invisible bug? Some sort of spider bite?" She couldn't rationalize it because the claws were palm shaped. And as it grabbed her and travelled across her body it was overwhelming pain. She thought it was some invisible beast taking bites out of her. And she wasn't wrong - I felt it bite chunks out of her arm, her torso, her legs. The pain is indescribable. 

In a panic Skye grappled a handrail and swung herself back into the hall, breaking into a sprint to run away. All thoughts of it being a tarot card were replaced by primal fear. She didn't even limp, adrenaline in her veins. For a moment it was quiet before we woke in Leen's pov again. When she stirred awake she knew the creature was still overhead, watching her. Like some never ending bad dream. Only being unconscious gave her respite. For a second she was so disoriented. She felt her bloodied leg and thought, "I haven't cut myself like this since I was little..." Which is blended memories from her iteration with ---------. She looked at the creature which was much like my night terrors and the demons from before, and with surprising calm, she limped her way back up the stairs to the hallway. It pursued her for just a minute, taking her left hand. I felt searing pain all through the hand and I heard Colleen whimper.


Then when she stepped into the hall, it was pitch black except for the moonlight streaming through a nearby window. Colleen couldn't even think of Lale. She just felt the deepest urge to flee. So she opened that window, out to a facade of a building that was kind of classical stone. She peered down at the courtyard which was about a storey or two below her, as Ground Floor was actually elevated and Basement was beneath the earth. And I felt the demons come closer 

Closer 

Leisurely 

With no other humans around, no Lale, not even Skye. It was following her in lockstep. She inched out the window with eyes pinned on the moon, too terrified to look back into the dark building where she knew something else was watching her. I had a flash vision of some like - you know that illustration from Scary Stories? A squat humanoid creature of gray flesh and scraggly hair and Waiting.

 And Colleen knew it was waiting for her. She peered down at the grass and strategically braced herself, her hand and leg still in blazing pain. And she jumped. Landed hard on her injured leg with a pained gasp. That's when I woke up. 

I woke up to phantom pain still lingering in my leg and hand It's been an hour and I'm too scared to go back to sleep The moment I opened my eyes transitioning from wake to sleep, the last thing I saw from Colleen's point of view was Girly lying beside us... Holding the hand that was burning in pain.

 For a moment I had a revelation, that the creatures were manifesting FROM Colleen because Girly whispered "You're the Devil." 

But her face was distorted. I woke finally to my dark room.

Girly rescuing me from the cat demons!

Birthday nightmare, yay!  Here's a crazy dream to recount.


So I dreamed last night that I was trying to prevent Armageddon - like, the Norse mythological apocalypse. I knew as soon as I started the dream that there would be signals of "eccentricity" that would tip off to me that the world was going to shit, but I was still trying very hard to prevent it.


What I can remember of the dream is, I wandered outside from the house I was living in in a neighbourhood that largely resembled the old neighbourhood of my grandparents. As soon as I stepped out of the house, everything outside was super saturated. Deep emerald leaves, bright pink and yellow and blue flowers, unusually blue sky. I knew it was starting.

I went to the busy street and tried to cross it to an older-style bungalow where I knew Simon was. I remember even checking the cars to make sure I didn't get hit. As I approached the house, I saw a bunch of boys I remember from highschool heading to its backyard, but all of them were desaturated and I was very wary of them. There was an older gentleman on the door of the house knocking, and I tentatively prodded him to see if he was on "my side" or not, but it turns out he was an NPC with a noise complaint to Simon.


So I went up to Simon and already I knew something was wrong because he was really... grumpy? He didn't seem to recognize me? Like he was behaving like a dudebro and mouthing off the man on his porch, so I shouldered past him and went upstairs to the bathroom, where I found a haggard bony man with black hair and green eyes - it was Loki, the Trickster god.

I knew Loki had been around because the telltale signs of the Armageddon were lingering around the corner. I began to seduce him pretty hard because I was trying to distract him and we eventually even had sex - extremely mediocre sex. LMAO. I could feel his small dick and he was genuinely using me up. He even came in me.

He was panting underneath me at some point and he was like, "For a mortal you sure know how to move. It must be an honour to be with Loki the god of Tricksters."

And then I remarked sarcastically, "For a jotunn you must be dense. It's your honour to be with Freya." And my hair totally grew out into like, orange flame hair that the goddess Freya would have, and he was like oh shit!

He like... morphed down the drain of the tub? BC that's where we were banging. And I was like "ah! fuck!"

So I ran outside to try and see if I can pursue him, or meet up with my "team". And here's where the dream gets kind of terrifying.

So I step outside and immediately, on the sidewalk in front of Simon's house, there was a white cat with green eyes.

Now you know how I mentioned at the beginning of the dream, I knew the rules? I knew that if I saw a signal of "eccentricity" then the world would be going to shit.

Well, the cat had its two eyes stacked on top of each other. And they were slowly rotating on the skull.

First off, I just want to say that what I did next is totally stupid but also very in character for me. I went up to the cat, and I pet it.

As soon as I put my hand on it, I actually heard it in my ear, live, make a horrific cat growl. As if It was literally right beside my waking body. I turned to flee, and I saw another cat - similar thing, this time it was orange-gray and had more eyes - running towards me down the sidewalk. I could feel the white cat lunging at me.

And then, I was immediately catapulted into the ballroom of the mansion.

Girly was there with a long spear, and she stabbed the cat before it could get me. I saw out of my peripheral vision that the cat's head had opened up to a crazy fanged demogorgon-like creature, and when Girly stabbed it, she whipped around, broke her spear in half - the two halves became daggers, and she lunged at the other "cat", which was fizzing into a black and suffocating smoke. She managed to stab it too. The whole time, Girly was SCOLDING ME. She was there, co conscious with me, and yanked me out of the nightmare before it could really begin.

She literally said, "Oh my fucking god Sophia, how many times do I have to tell you NOT to engage with the demons when you know they're demons?!"

This was 6:14 in the morning, and I woke up frozen - just like the last time, with that crazy dream with Colleen and Lale in the community centre where like, Colleen ended up throwing herself out of a window to escape a demon? It felt just like that, where I was so scared and the sound of the cat yowling was echoing in my right ear.

But inside headspace, it was consistent. Girly stood with the two daggers in the ballroom and the remnants of the two cat demon things on the floor around us. She was panting, it was twilight inside, and her eyes were glowing. And she kept scolding me lmao.

"I can't take my eyes off you for a second!" 

"Sorry, sorry, Girly," I told her sheepishly. 

"Oh you would've been sorry!"

And then I dozed back off eventually, after Girly settled in bed with me. I couldn't see headspace anymore but she definitely snuggled on my chest with me and she was still muttering something about the demons in a really irritated tone.

That's my dream!

In hindsight this was an amazing dream.  I have never transitioned so smoothly from a nightmare straight into headspace with a headmate who was conscious and engaging whatever creature was there.  I'm so blessed she protected me because... hell I knew I was gonna get eaten.

Moral of the story: don't go petting cats with fucked up eyes in an armageddon setting.