Lale and Colleen and Skye - vivid dream

So this is the August 2019 dream I had with the Devil's Ensemble (tarot card magic) canon, pulled off my messages frantically sent to Milly:

 I had a nightmare just now I gotta write it down right now. Two scenes I can remember vaguely. You were in it, Milly. We were at some sort of school and or community center and I really wanted to go to this drop-in dance class. We were late. Participated and had to pause to watch for instructions. People dressed in fancy clothes, ballgowns and haute couture despite it being like a comm center gym room.

Sorry, three scenes not two. When the class was done you and I planned to go home, but I felt the presence of someone coming and immediately morphed into Lale. It was late afternoon getting to evenin, Lale rushed to the basement of the comm center through the stairwell and at some point was on a floor .5 levels below ground. Had several tarot cards. There was the normal hustle and bustle of people til Lale heard the clack of high heels. He stopped and muted his aura because his fight flight or freeze told him to freeze, and as he froze to watch whoever was coming down the hall methodically click clacking, it was Skye. 

Skye dressed in nice leather biker clothes with hot pink dress shirt, dark big sunglasses, lip gloss. I heard narration. 

"Lalein stamped down hard on the urge to wail. The man inside of him - the man inside of [Tarot card, in the dream I distinctly felt like it was Justice but I'm going to go with Lovers for accuracy], the man known as [name of some historical owner of card] knew immediately that the Chariot had come his way. He stamped on the urge to scream "Alessia! Alessia! Alessia!" as the ghost of that man sought the ghost of someone it once loved, the confused remnants of time and space and feelings that did not belong to him. Lalein bit his cheeks so hard they bled, praying to Lucifael to keep him out of sight. In his state, he could not win this fight."

Lalein had been struggling to acclimatize and harmonize several cards inside of him. Hierophant and Hanged Man and I believe Hermit which means in this dream, someone had killed Kazaelle, and he must've won a fight against whoever did because he now had her card. He was flowing through shadows to run but froze seeing Skye, surprisingly enough the Hermit did not offer him memories from Kazaelle probably because he doesn't know her true name. Flowing through the dark is hermits power. So HM, hierophant, Hermit, and he'd gotten the Lovers already. He was exhausted Cards were not going easy on him and he had several true names memorized so he was being bombarded with old cardholder memories, constantly needing to meditate. 

I heard more narration as I watched a brief flashback of Lale in a rigid Buddhist meditation pose:

 "One would begin to wonder if he was a quiet man because, by nature, he was quiet. Or, if one could imagine the sublime and indescribable torture that was receiving these memories day by day, having the lives and feelings and final fear-soaked moments of death impregnated into one's mind by a card desperate for one's victory... It would occur to one privy to the madness that was the Cycle to think Lalein, silent and staring into the rain, was barely a man any longer. Perhaps he was merely a ghost now as well, a ghost of Vaudemair dia Gatlael held together by the unchanging desire of the body to remain intact perpetually at war with the inhuman toils of four conflicting threads of fate." 

Something like that.


Well Lale was trying to very, very carefully get to Colleen. She was somewhere in the building as well. I think she went there for a class of some sort. This doesn't make sense in canon but I WILL weave it in. I can't shake this dream off. It frightened me deeply. 

Skye was determined to blow this place up to try and kill Colleen and Lale who were inside. I believe timeline wise this is after layleen have attacked the Baines and won?? That would explain why she was so grim and hell bent, and betraying the very morals she once held of not harming people uninvolved with the cycle. Lale should have Emperor then, but it's still surprising that it's Lovers that recognizes Chariot... But I prefer that because Lale is literally the Lovers and fighting that painful, heartbreaking urge from a past cardholder would actually disable him.

I'm alone at front rn. Okay so. As Lalein struggled to remain hidden but also continue to move along the basement stone corridors, much like in most malls or community centers for fire escape or connecting stores, it switched to Skye.

Skye was communicating over Bluetooth with her getaway driver, a dude who took money to drive her around. Despite being Chariot (ONLY chariot no other cards) she knew a getaway driver would suppress her aura better. She was casually checking on bombs in the basement of the building, knowing and feeling lay and Leen close by and getting more grim and determined with the second. I watched her locate at least four subtle but powerful bombs in stairwells and pipes etc. Idk why bc motivations are unclear right now, only that Skye was determined to get a card at any cost. Not sure why she's desperate enough to commit terrorism? But she wasn't doing it to be evil. Dream motivation was clearly sparked by a desire for a card paired with desperation. Maybe to retrieve Hermit. Hence why she chose at night knowing layleen would be there and not as many other people. Maybe layleen were hiding out there on the run and she was tracking them. Chariot is good at that. It jumped to Colleen for just a moment in a stark confrontation between Skye and Leen ... 

Oh, shit, I just remembered part of the dream!

It's not Skye who planted the bombs. That makes sense now. idk I gotta mull on this more from a writing perspective but in the dream I was under the impression she planted them. So Colleen and Skye in a confrontation, Colleen has Justice so she unsheathes her sword. Aka the Trilling Blade, dripping and looking eldritch as usual. She and Skye have a tense heated conversation before Skye makes a move at her and at that exact moment the bombs go off.

The bombs are surprisingly not so strong as to capsize the building. No screams bc it was empty by then being so late at night. Skye is surprised by the explosions hence why I realized now she didn't plant them?? I think it's bc when she checked them she was either A setting them up or B disabling them and either case they shouldn't have blown. 

Ok, dream gets fucking scary from here. So I get tossed three povs. One, Lalein is trapped in the rubble considering he's in the basement. It's not life threatening but when he's stunned he hears the manifestation of like, a music box clink, almost exactly like Charlie from don't starve. For some reason hearing it completely freezes him in primal fear. That fear pervaded me.

It switched to Skye who was running out of the basement bc sheer debris and dust and toxicity warned her to leave. Her getaway driver ran into the building like WTF WE GOTTA GET OUT, some scruffy Owen Wilson looking man, and she has to play the pretense of being a Normal Human as he drags her to the safety of his car and they gtfo. They were in an electric vehicle too. Idk why I knew this. As they drove down a road in sunset, which broke the time of the dream, at some point the car breaks down in a rural midpoint. 

As driver gets out to check smoking hood Skye contemplates killing him to erase eyewitnesses, but he cheerfully jokes with her about how she's had one hell of a day, eh? And just because he seems like a dumb and straightforward man who'd do anything for money, she gets a funny look on her face. "Hundred bucks and we do this again next time," she remarked, to which the man said something like only if you cover repairs this time. What he doesn't know is she broke the car using Chariot LOL 

Okay so Skye then feels something coming from the road, she realizes it's a cardholder she doesn't recognize. Not lay or leen. She shushes getaway driver and squishes herself in the passenger seat hoping her aura is suppressed enough. It's not. Who drives by but Alistair, my Wheel of Fortune, aka the same guy who's blown up both Jun Yens apartment and Heaven Underground and probably all sorts of other places. Oddly enough they're in the same kind of car. As Skye yanks the wheel from passenger side she wills the Chariot to help her drive and they take off. Alistair is hot on their heels and she just knows she can't shake him in a car. Some narration from getaway guy like "oh his is the x make which is larger with more horsepower but ours is smaller with more maneuverability" but less power or something.  Vertigo from the car chase I remember clearly. They loop back to go back to town Community centre oddly enough has no alarms sound. Security system disabled so no one even noticed the basement and smoke etc

 Well the dream cut back for a second to Colleen, in the ear ringing moment of being caught in the attack. She feels something rise out of the basement, something terrible and demonic. It's one of the demons of my headspace, or so I thought. Something I haven't felt in years, just like Charlie's hands, just like the drawing I did. Invisible but present as it poured out of the basement like a gate to hell torn open.

Colleen had been unconscious for a few minutes, waking up to Skye having run away. Coughing in the debris she scrambled up the stairs trying to climb back to ground floor when the thing caught her. I felt it claw through her leg. Rake claws methodically upwards from foot to thigh shredding her flesh into ribbons as it went. Colleen screamed. When she fell panting and trying to yank herself away by the arms, I felt the debris give away and she rolled into her back from the impact. She passed out again.

A flicker into Lalein's pov because he heard the scream. A part of him panicked and another part mourned. I heard him think I failed her again, a blur between Ensemble canon and real headspace Lalein. He disappeared thoroughly, the last thing I heard from him a gasp for air as the debris crushed him before he melded into shadow and lost his physical form. It then skipped back to Skye. Skye knows they're not gonna win this chase so she tells getaway driver to take himself to the nearest police station cos he's faultless. Then she literally leaps out the window and rolls fine into a sidewalk. People gasp but she grabs a motorcycle nearby and yeets herself back to the comm center. She goes into this eerily silent building and she drops back into the stairwell because she can feel Colleen still inside... But as she drops from like the ground floor to the basement she is immediately fucking regret because she feels the Thing.

At first she's stunned and thinks it's some form of the hanged man, something something Lucifael and long distorted hands. But as it slams into her, invisible, she shouts and struggles and begins fighting it with her whip. It picks her up and smashes her against the stairwell walls multiple times before Skye registers the clawing sensations too I remember her incredulous thoughts "Holy fucking shit, is it an invisible bug? Some sort of spider bite?" She couldn't rationalize it because the claws were palm shaped. And as it grabbed her and travelled across her body it was overwhelming pain. She thought it was some invisible beast taking bites out of her. And she wasn't wrong - I felt it bite chunks out of her arm, her torso, her legs. The pain is indescribable. 

In a panic Skye grappled a handrail and swung herself back into the hall, breaking into a sprint to run away. All thoughts of it being a tarot card were replaced by primal fear. She didn't even limp, adrenaline in her veins. For a moment it was quiet before we woke in Leen's pov again. When she stirred awake she knew the creature was still overhead, watching her. Like some never ending bad dream. Only being unconscious gave her respite. For a second she was so disoriented. She felt her bloodied leg and thought, "I haven't cut myself like this since I was little..." Which is blended memories from her iteration with ---------. She looked at the creature which was much like my night terrors and the demons from before, and with surprising calm, she limped her way back up the stairs to the hallway. It pursued her for just a minute, taking her left hand. I felt searing pain all through the hand and I heard Colleen whimper.


Then when she stepped into the hall, it was pitch black except for the moonlight streaming through a nearby window. Colleen couldn't even think of Lale. She just felt the deepest urge to flee. So she opened that window, out to a facade of a building that was kind of classical stone. She peered down at the courtyard which was about a storey or two below her, as Ground Floor was actually elevated and Basement was beneath the earth. And I felt the demons come closer 

Closer 

Leisurely 

With no other humans around, no Lale, not even Skye. It was following her in lockstep. She inched out the window with eyes pinned on the moon, too terrified to look back into the dark building where she knew something else was watching her. I had a flash vision of some like - you know that illustration from Scary Stories? A squat humanoid creature of gray flesh and scraggly hair and Waiting.

 And Colleen knew it was waiting for her. She peered down at the grass and strategically braced herself, her hand and leg still in blazing pain. And she jumped. Landed hard on her injured leg with a pained gasp. That's when I woke up. 

I woke up to phantom pain still lingering in my leg and hand It's been an hour and I'm too scared to go back to sleep The moment I opened my eyes transitioning from wake to sleep, the last thing I saw from Colleen's point of view was Girly lying beside us... Holding the hand that was burning in pain.

 For a moment I had a revelation, that the creatures were manifesting FROM Colleen because Girly whispered "You're the Devil." 

But her face was distorted. I woke finally to my dark room.

Girly rescuing me from the cat demons!

Birthday nightmare, yay!  Here's a crazy dream to recount.


So I dreamed last night that I was trying to prevent Armageddon - like, the Norse mythological apocalypse. I knew as soon as I started the dream that there would be signals of "eccentricity" that would tip off to me that the world was going to shit, but I was still trying very hard to prevent it.


What I can remember of the dream is, I wandered outside from the house I was living in in a neighbourhood that largely resembled the old neighbourhood of my grandparents. As soon as I stepped out of the house, everything outside was super saturated. Deep emerald leaves, bright pink and yellow and blue flowers, unusually blue sky. I knew it was starting.

I went to the busy street and tried to cross it to an older-style bungalow where I knew Simon was. I remember even checking the cars to make sure I didn't get hit. As I approached the house, I saw a bunch of boys I remember from highschool heading to its backyard, but all of them were desaturated and I was very wary of them. There was an older gentleman on the door of the house knocking, and I tentatively prodded him to see if he was on "my side" or not, but it turns out he was an NPC with a noise complaint to Simon.


So I went up to Simon and already I knew something was wrong because he was really... grumpy? He didn't seem to recognize me? Like he was behaving like a dudebro and mouthing off the man on his porch, so I shouldered past him and went upstairs to the bathroom, where I found a haggard bony man with black hair and green eyes - it was Loki, the Trickster god.

I knew Loki had been around because the telltale signs of the Armageddon were lingering around the corner. I began to seduce him pretty hard because I was trying to distract him and we eventually even had sex - extremely mediocre sex. LMAO. I could feel his small dick and he was genuinely using me up. He even came in me.

He was panting underneath me at some point and he was like, "For a mortal you sure know how to move. It must be an honour to be with Loki the god of Tricksters."

And then I remarked sarcastically, "For a jotunn you must be dense. It's your honour to be with Freya." And my hair totally grew out into like, orange flame hair that the goddess Freya would have, and he was like oh shit!

He like... morphed down the drain of the tub? BC that's where we were banging. And I was like "ah! fuck!"

So I ran outside to try and see if I can pursue him, or meet up with my "team". And here's where the dream gets kind of terrifying.

So I step outside and immediately, on the sidewalk in front of Simon's house, there was a white cat with green eyes.

Now you know how I mentioned at the beginning of the dream, I knew the rules? I knew that if I saw a signal of "eccentricity" then the world would be going to shit.

Well, the cat had its two eyes stacked on top of each other. And they were slowly rotating on the skull.

First off, I just want to say that what I did next is totally stupid but also very in character for me. I went up to the cat, and I pet it.

As soon as I put my hand on it, I actually heard it in my ear, live, make a horrific cat growl. As if It was literally right beside my waking body. I turned to flee, and I saw another cat - similar thing, this time it was orange-gray and had more eyes - running towards me down the sidewalk. I could feel the white cat lunging at me.

And then, I was immediately catapulted into the ballroom of the mansion.

Girly was there with a long spear, and she stabbed the cat before it could get me. I saw out of my peripheral vision that the cat's head had opened up to a crazy fanged demogorgon-like creature, and when Girly stabbed it, she whipped around, broke her spear in half - the two halves became daggers, and she lunged at the other "cat", which was fizzing into a black and suffocating smoke. She managed to stab it too. The whole time, Girly was SCOLDING ME. She was there, co conscious with me, and yanked me out of the nightmare before it could really begin.

She literally said, "Oh my fucking god Sophia, how many times do I have to tell you NOT to engage with the demons when you know they're demons?!"

This was 6:14 in the morning, and I woke up frozen - just like the last time, with that crazy dream with Colleen and Lale in the community centre where like, Colleen ended up throwing herself out of a window to escape a demon? It felt just like that, where I was so scared and the sound of the cat yowling was echoing in my right ear.

But inside headspace, it was consistent. Girly stood with the two daggers in the ballroom and the remnants of the two cat demon things on the floor around us. She was panting, it was twilight inside, and her eyes were glowing. And she kept scolding me lmao.

"I can't take my eyes off you for a second!" 

"Sorry, sorry, Girly," I told her sheepishly. 

"Oh you would've been sorry!"

And then I dozed back off eventually, after Girly settled in bed with me. I couldn't see headspace anymore but she definitely snuggled on my chest with me and she was still muttering something about the demons in a really irritated tone.

That's my dream!

In hindsight this was an amazing dream.  I have never transitioned so smoothly from a nightmare straight into headspace with a headmate who was conscious and engaging whatever creature was there.  I'm so blessed she protected me because... hell I knew I was gonna get eaten.

Moral of the story: don't go petting cats with fucked up eyes in an armageddon setting.